Christian?

Hi...I'm a Christian and I love and pray for everyone. But if you struggle with anything: smoking, drinking, sex, cursing, I will not be your friend. I can not be seen with you and I can not have your un-Chritian behavior rub off on me.  I will judge you and will be critical of every thing you say and do...Yes, I am what they call a loving Christian.

MAKES ME SO MAD AND EMBARASSED TO CALL MYSELF A CHRISTIAN

Currently Watching Funny Face By Audrey Hepburn, Fred Astaire, Kay Thompson, Michel Auclair, Robert Flemyng, Dovima, Suzy Parker, Sunny Hartnett, Jean Del Val, Virginia Gibson, Sue England, Ruta Lee, Alex Gerry, Iphigenie Castiglioni, Cecile Rogers, Forbes Murray, Baroness Ella Van Heemstra, Gabriel Curtiz, Albert Godderis, Roger Edens see related

Weak

Lord, I admit that I am weak. I admit that I am nothing without you and I know without you nothing is possible. Lord I come to you today broken and hurt. I come to you with so many questions and with so much heartache. Take this pain I have off my heart. Take this broken child and make me whole again. Lord I ask you to straighten my life back to the way it was. To take my desires and make them yours again. I don't know why I feel the things that I feel and do the dumb things that I do but all I can say is that I'm truly sorry. I am sorry for the heartache I have caused you and I pray for your mercy on my life. Lord please remind me that I don't always have to be in control and I can allow others into my life. Allow me to be open and honest and please give me the strength to be vulnerable with others.

Lord help me in this week ahead and all the things I am struggling with. I can't do this without you and I know you will never leave me. And for that I am truly thankful and I will serve you for all eternity.

Currently Listening Testimony: Vol. 1, Life & Relationship By India.Arie see related

Feelings and emotions are the strongest most important and confusing part of our lives. The things that we think and the way that we feel are so real and raw. And when the things you say or the things you feel aren't taken seriously, it hurts. It's so hard to put yourself out there for the world to see. It's hard to share what your emotions are because you might get laughed at or you might get hurt. I am sick of living like that. I want to tell people how I feel. I want my emotions to be known by the important people in my life. I sometimes feel so small in a world so big and I wonder if the things I do or the feelings I have matter to anybody. Do people care that my heart hurts with pain? Do people know how terrified I am to move 1400 miles away from my family and start a complete new life? Do you know that I am scared to death that I will fail at ENC and I won't make it on my own? Do you know that I love someone very dearly and they don't know? Did you know that I am a very emotional and heart-felt person? No. I don't tell anybody these things and why? I don't want to be hurt. I have put up such a wall to protect myself from feeling weak or vulnerable. This wall is so thick and full of tears and smiles. I never allow myself to feel for anybody. Not even myself. You might be thinking, wow, she puts up a good front. You are right!! I am such a strong person that I don't know if I can do it anymore. I want a friend whom I can cry to. A friend who I can tell everything to. Nobody knows the real Michelle. Nobody! I don't care how close you think we are there is a whole other side to me. Why have I been so afraid to let it show? I want strength Lord to allow my walls to break and to let myself feel pain, feelings, love, and anger. I want to experience it all. Not turn to bitterness or anger the first time I feel something. Lord help me to be strong and allow me to feel real emotions.

WEIRD....I just turned the page on my Christian Thought of the Day thing and this is what is says," If I will simply hand myself over to Jesus Christ, I will never have to experience the terrible possiblities that lie within my heart." Words from God Himself!

YEAH!!! TAYLOR WON AMERICAN IDOL!!!!!